I amputated her, then sewed her back on

Sometimes I hate the fact that I am a Scorpio, they always romaticize EVERYTHING. We want people to be able to read our fucking minds and no matter how much turbulance I experience being a romantic I can drop it, and to tell the truth, its so much a part of me that I don't think that I want to. A couple of months ago I broke up with my bestfriend along with my girlfriend, on the same night, the day after my birthday, within about ten seconds of eachother. Although I love both of them to fucking death I was soooo pissed off not only because they were not able to be there for me on my birthday but because I had been feeling so left out of their lives, I had been in a relationship that ( at the time) I felt was leading towards possible marriage in about eight years (there is no way IN HELL Im getting married young, that's my grandma's bag, not mine). He and I had been going out for five and a half months and they didn't even know anything about him. I was feeling like crap because I didn't feel like I had MY friends, my true friends, they both had gotten jobs and they were constantly out of the house while I felt like I was stuck in a rut. Maybe I had been spoiled by them because I was just so used to having them right there for me that I forgot that they had their own lives. Although I still haven't contacted my ex-girlfriend and I do love her sooo much, I hold her more responsible than I do my bestfriend because we were supposed to be in love and well I still feel like I felt stronger towards her than she did me. My bestfriend on the other hand, I emailed her because I found it easier to talk online than it was to talk over the phone. I am just sad that I missed this whole portion of her life because I was being selfish. I feel closer to her than I have ever been to anyone, even my Mili_baby and I can talk to him about ANYTHING, girls, guys, my mom, feelings of suicide,grades, just anything and he will talk to me without going all after school special on my ass, but my bestfriend, I don't have to tell her, she just knows. The only thing that's sad a little is that she's engaged now and we won't be going out to look for guys together anymore, I guess I'll be doing that with Franky now, but its cool cuz she and I have a closer idea of what is hot. Just for those out there who don't know what sexy is: Black long hair (maybe spiked, mohawk, or dyed some outrageous color), a medium size streched lobe ( sometimes guys can get so carried away), lip piercings, nipple piercings, basically piercings, tattoos, kinda skinny and tall, rock t-shirts( or at least a good sence of alternative style), and a total must beat up chuck taylors. That's sexy, but there are always exceptions like candi bois, and normal looking (meaning pretty bois) who are kwel enuf to keep my interest. Lol but I do wonder how weird it'll be to have my married friend along with me on our freshman year of college spring break on GGW (The hardcore edition).