So, Rollercoasters are fun huh??

I hate life and I need my bestfriend again, I am so glad that I am friends with her again but I don't want to load her up again with my troubles, I like talked her ear off yesterday. I feel bad when I do things like that but I am in desperate need of a sounding board. I feel myself slipping again, I really do but I can't go to my Mili_baby and tell him because he is going through too much and when I call him ( he lives with his friggin' girlfriend) it is tooooooooo weird, especially when he isn't there! I feel like slipping back into my old habits, anyone who knows me knows what those are, well maybe not everyone, if you don't know then I don't trust you and you aren't really my friend. Well, except for my NillacarebearBaby, she's fuckin awesome but I never have time to bother her. lol oh geez, somebody stole the book of Femminism, Im gonna have to by another one and if I see someone with my notebook I'm gonna know that they took mine because you can only get them from one place in my town, AND their fucking imported from Europe! Oh well, I am offically back on the other side of my valley but I truely feel that I am happiest most when I know exactly how I feel and I feel the worst when I am within that valley of mediocracy. I do find a little hope though in my WeedHed lol he is awesome, no, he is AWWWWesome. He is such a fucking sweety, but my skin of burlap is thinning, its been a long time since I have been here, I don't like being here, lots of my friends do and my ex did, I miss her. I remember when I was going to leave with her, I think I might leave with WeedHed, he asks me all the time, I think he's just staying here for me...I wonder. I can't wait for summer though, I am going to Pennsly and I can't WAIT!!!! AHHH it will end the boredom that is my city, even though I know all the good places to go they ONE, get boring when you wear out the novelty, or TWO break up with your older boyfriend who can get you into those places. AND NO MATTER WHAT MY FRIENDS SAY I AM NOT ABOUT TO USE HIS ASS! lol my one friend tells me that I should have him pay for prom and take someone else. But that's how girls come up dead in trash bins, and I know his fucking temper, they'll be recieving me in chucks for months because there is alot of me. lol oh well I need to go and quit obsessing or else I'll start up my activities.