It's an...ahhh how do you say?? Introspection

Well I have never had a really awesome springbreak since '03...I know, pitty me. I need a job, I want independence, especially since my mother's considering throwing me out anyway! lol Nothing too horrible, she's just envious of my zest for life outside the suffocating perimeters of my town. I yearn for the exotic sensation of Japan and Bali, of Peru and Brazil ( wonder if I'll ever see Marisol again), hell I'll temporarily settle for fuckin Capital City, at least that's were my mentor lives and I'll have a place to stay rent free. I hate this state, but my friends who "love me so much" don't want me to leave, but if they loved me they would see how I have been mistakenly born in the wrong place with an environment not sufficient to contain my indvisuality. People say that they want to stand out but they don't, at least on the one side of town that is my sanctuary I can blend for a while, but I will not be content in a budding liberal scene that has been around since the sixties. Lets face it people, our underground scene will never be like Boston,L.A.,New York, or even Chicago's for that matter. This state is too close to the conservative edge to ever be truely there. Therefore I must get out of here before I find myself listening to pop music, shopping at Abercrombie and succoming to peer pressure like some conventional or something. On a note that isn't completely unrelated, No sweety, I won't. I still love you very much but you of all people know who I am, and I would literally die if we couldn't be friends anymore, I still need you to make the colors on my socks ( look no more mean spelling hun!) go away, don't leave me, not yet.