M.I.A.

Wow, I've been sick with food poisoning for the past two days, but I don't know, I think that a big chunk of that was psychological. On Friday I saw my ex, SUCKY right!!! Man this entire time I have been trying soo damn hard to get over her but when I saw her, it all came flooding back and let me just say... she looks damn good with black hair, better than she did with red hair and I LOVE red heads. So what do I do? My roommate says that I should forget my pride and go tell her how I feel. I don't know, I'm a little too stubborn for that, especially since I was the one who went all Angela Basset in Waiting to Exhale, and decided to break up. Crawling back to her now would be like an admission of guilt, and I wasn't wrong, right? Well since you don't know the milieu I'll inform you with the condensed version: She and I were friends first, she kissed me, I fell in love, I wooed her, We dated for about a year and a half, Both of us continued to have seperate boyfriends, but SHE continuously put her boyfriends before me, on my birthday she neglected to even call me because she was out with one of her many different boyfriends... so I waited until the next day, called her and told her to loose my phone number. Now just because I was pissed off didn't mean I didn't still love her, but she made no effort to even try and call me, I just felt like she didn't love me as much as I loved her, so I continued to hold a grudge against her for a while until I finally just got too busy to care, then I saw her again and this happened. Now I can't stop thinking about her and all the little stuff that she did that made me love her, I NEED HELP.