Obsession is MADDENING...

I've fallen in love, and hard...I've found my college. This place has everything that I want!! The only thing that it's lacking are really good dorms, and when I say really good dorms I mean like Boston University's or somthing but hell I can deal with that! Tufts is the best college that there ever was, or atleast for me. One student even described Tufts' students as the kids who couldn't get into Ivy League, OMG is that not perfect for me! I already said that I'm too smart for a state college but my grades aren't good enough for an Ivy League school. Which is suprising when you think about it, god two stupid first semester grades in Freshman year screwed me in the ass for life. Jackhole teachers. NE WAYZ, now that I have fallen so fucking deeply in love I've gotta make sure my grades are up to snuff for the new object of my affection, I just hope I get in! I've been on every freakin site of theirs including student run sites and campusdirt.com the more I learn about this school the harder I fall, man I'm becoming soo obsessed this place is great, AND its only minutes from BOSTON which is currently the headquarters of RAVERS, yes, I will be amongst my kind. I don't know if its tru or not but I think there is a place in Boston called Little Japan or something, that'll be awesome too, I've always wanted to go to Japan so that's kwel. I need to stop now because I could talk all day about this school and really I don't feel like going crazy.

Life sux here in MEDIOCRACY

I guess I am happiest most when I'm complaining, at least then I have a definite emotion instead of this whole hanging in the balance shit. Man all the fucking members of The Used are hot as hell! especially Mark, man I'd fucking pay to follow him around all day, his ass chin is sexy as fuck. LOL. Well I didn't see, HIM today, I fucking love his piercings, but Im a lil sad about that but I did see that other guy, and man is he fucking sexy, people don't think I like the type of guys that I do cuz so many jackholes think they fucking know me. IM NOT SWEET PEOPLE, IM THAT QUIET GIRL ON THE SIDELINES OF EVERY SCHOOL EVENT WHO LEADS A DUAL LIFE. If people really knew me though they'd start calling me a slut again and I don't feel like going through that again at ANOTHER school. I hate it when people underestimate my lookes, girls get so mad at me when their fucking boyfriends look at me, its not my fault that I have a drawing, smoldering look. GET A LIFE AND STOP HATING ME. Man I think my chances of going to an IVY LEAGUE College, man I'm in the middle, state school is not for me I'm too smart and I know it, but IVY LEAGUE is just out of reach, life sux here in mediocracy.

The Same Vicious Ass Cycle

Another wonderful day of Final Exams ends with me seeing him and her acting as though they are fucking married, I mean it's one thing for him to like her, another for her to like him but an entirely different catastrope when they begin to publicly display their emotions for one another. Especially with them both being my friend and her telling me, LYING TO ME, saying that she doesn't like him. Fucking jackholes. This keeps happening to me, third fucking time damnit! why do I always end up liking my friends? It never works out. But this time though I don't want to stifle my feelings, I mean is that selfish of me? Should I tell him I like him, I mean he has no clue that I like him and its not like they go out with one another. Some one please give me some advice!

I've Claimed my Right as a Teenager to be DRAMATIC...

So my life hangs in the balance as my future is currently being determined by middle aged, underpaid, vendictive ass teachers who don't even give a shit about me to begin with, FINAL EXAMS. Few even realize what is happening here, it is a conspiracy thought up by the heartless conglomerates of America in order to weed out the undesireable population of students!! And the schools, the schools are in on it too! Ah, well maybe not but it sure in the hell feels like everyone is conspiring to get me, all of them, HIM included. I found out that he likes my friend, man how fucking shity does that make me feel!!!! Grrr, and I'm fucking cute too, he's the dork, men suck, I need some ALANIS MORISETTE. Ok, after four shitty sets I finally find a good set of headphones and I know I'm supposed to be doing my shit for my next round of finals but I need this release. Alanis was really one of the best singers before she went all " I'm in love now", I don't know there might be a very real chance that I'm envious, but it was from her that I learned to be a bi-sexual femminist who hates women (Eight easy steps). I'm dropping one of my classes because the teacher is such a bitch plus one of my friends is acting like crap, just like another one of my past friends... stupid slut. Anyway I need to start working shit especially if I want to redeem myself from my exams today, man my chances of going to an Ivy League College are becoming slim to none. * Deftones- Back to School* I love this damn video!!! Man, because we have half day everyone is out there when I am and there are no words that can explain how much I detest all those fucking superficial ass children at that school and the more I am around them it wares on my immunity.